I like my neighborhood.. i like my. gun! drive in my little car. i am your girl and i will protect you ^_^
My public private place to talk to myself
God I freaking love xiu xiu. But I need a job.
> I hate my body
> I hate the desert
> Please let me escape
> I hate my husband
> I hate my children
> I'm going to hang myself
When will I be going home?
> I hate the desert
> Please let me escape
> I hate my husband
> I hate my children
> I'm going to hang myself
When will I be going home?
I might be a kinsey scale five for agent cooper twinpeaks. I wish his first name wasnt dale though. whatever
Ok it was bugging me too much I went back to safari. whatever
I started using firefox and I like it but now the scrollbars on my photolog page are all messed up. They're supposed to be blue and now theyre grey...
Summer of good media im telling you. Read kafka on the shore listen to knife play by xiuxiu. Also watch twin peaks. and videodrome. ohh also read earthlings by Sayaka Murata. um. wander around outside for a while. my advice take it or leave it. Not basic because i dont freaking care kill yourself. to my hypothetical haters.
I feel a weird connection to conor oberst.. I really truly feel like I am him 26 years younger. One time I had an ed counsellor say that I reminded her of him. Maybe thats what started the connection in my brain. But I do agree with her.
I wish I'd stayed on t long enought to grow a Zappa style beard
I think I will cut up some celery
you know ive never found a celebrity lookalike but I have found a lot of paintings of men from ~17th century that look a lot like me. Personally I see a lot of myself in Baruch Spinoza if he had a shorter face maybe. Also princess Mary of Orange shes not a man so I guess its not just men. And she wasnt ugly so that makes this entry less funny.
Is it better to avoid internal criticism or try to improve upon the things that are being criticized. I think the hard part is figuring out which criticisms are real and valid and which are normal obsessive insecurities. I wish bright eyes would come to canada
I really need to walk around on a warm day. Ive been listening to a lot of Sufjan Stevens
I really need to not go on my computer this summer but its really hard... I think once I put my sim card back in my flip phone and genuinely log off instagram for real it will be okay. I got a a bunch of new books for my birthday so I can just read whenever I feel like engaging in a mindless activity. I also do really like updating this site and I dont want to stop but I'll just have to find some way to limit my usage. Whateverrr. Im gonna go brush my teeth and write in my diary... goodnight
I hate Nietzsche!!!!!!!
Im listening to mobo the weekend everything is going to be okay. you got a smile that could light this town and we might need it...
My head is my head is my head is
5 days left. Happy easter 420. im gonna grow out a rattail
Everything happening and nothing happening it doesnt matter everything is going to happen anyway. its april 17th and I dont feel ready for anything at all.. its going to pass no matter what i do and no matter how much i wish it wouldnt theres a big part of me thats glad its out of my control.. End of introspection for the day I seriously need to work on my capstone paper
Things I need to write about soon: identity and true self. human sexual dimorphism. modern psychiatry. will continue to add to this list over time probably
When'd you say you say you were leaving. when'd you really leave.. UGH. and somewhere down the line you'll look back and say you did the best that you could and you'll be wrong...you're always wrong...
I need to finish this essay
I dont want to say it never leaves you because i really think it can i really do. but oh man does it ever linger... literally like.i am an offer you can not refuse it. ugh what the hell. well what if i want to refuse it though... what if.. like it can linger but you don't have to give in to it you feel me. Just accept the feeling and try to understand it. I think. idk.
Because its the one thing that I couldnt live without and so I think about that and then I sort of black out :(
I think honestly i would be okay if i never had another conversation about gender identity or sexuality or autism or neurodivergence or whatever like is there nothing else interesting in the world i get it man but like i really just think everything to say about those topics has been said by now. in a casual conversation sense at least. I really just want to have other conversations. it feels kinda hypocritical because i feel like i talk about gender all the time... But thats kinda part of it like I think talking about sexism is important but at a certain point. I don't want it to be all I think about -_-
one day i will eradicate human sexual dimorphism
Happy ten years carrie and lowell
It makes no sense how consistently fire belle and sebastians discography is
I think my dream woman is a husky roller derby player.. I could go to her games with a big sign and chant sooo loud
Everybody wants to talk about growing up as a weird girl ok... well how many of you were voted 'most unique individual' for your sixth grade graduation superlative... yeah thats what I thought
As soon as I finish my real life school essays im gonna write all my gender essays on here... There are so many things I've been wanting to verbalize for sooo long
I think the argument that prohibition never works in regards to outlawing pornography and prostitution only really makes sense if you don't fully believe that the sex industry is female class warfare. Do you feel the same way about child pornography? Are people "always going to make child pornography, so we might as well keep it legal so that we can have proper regulations and protections for the children involved"... hmm... I don't believe that that rings true... Personally I don't think that our world has any inherent market-demand for women's bodies. Am I crazy for trying to imagine a world where women aren't raped for money? I dunno...
School actually making me so crazy im listening to the weakerthans virtute saga
I hate pronouns
Jeff Buckley got me sitting in peculiar positions